Are we really free.....

we are all free.....take a good look around you and think whether this is true or just a hoax......everyday incessantly someone trumps our freedom with their ideology.....this is what has become of us all.....this is the modified version that we are led to believe as freedom....recently i read the new fredrick forsyth book 'the cobra'....it shows the real menace that narcotics can bring to a family......all these led me to think on 'are we really free'.....there is chaos everywhere.....there is no peace around....democracies are existing on a thin line of so called peace.....a very fragile situation and what astonishes me the most is to see people not even giving a damn about it....leave alone doing something......this is a really grim situation and it really saddens me......anger i've none any more.......all this resentment and bottled up feelings i had decided to pen and came into existence these following lines.......

the freedom cry!!!!


brimming with life
bustling with energy
a scene so ripe
like a cacaphony in synergy
hard to believe
but its raw as blood
so many hearts that never leave
like drifting in a flood
some gloom
some happy
its all of ignorance
its all of love

reality does differ
the truth they see not
then they would shiver
stomach pained with a knot
budgets increasing daily
machines built to be sent
striking mortality incessantly
or snorting their way to death
some lost
some mourned
its all in the name of power
its all in the name of lust

promises there has been many
people taking offices in plenty
then the problems are ignored gently
and we again go to the box sadly
time hangs from a balance
waiting for us to wake
done placing all the grievances
due is a great havoc
all rise
all cry
its for our life
its for our real freedom!!!!

lets hope that more people will start caring.......

brand new year

well just a few days back we turned our asses onto another year.......to some its a great opportunity of forget and never forgive...to some it is just an increment to the last couple of numbers of their yr column......whatever it may be it was a year that past another that just begun with some chilling weather.....this new year brought with it many new ideas and thoughts......this new year lets make it better for all those about whom we care and batter all those whom we hate......happy new year 2011....

lets try to be romantic..........

There always is a time in all our lives when we fall hopelessly in love with a person......well this person is their dream lover....a celebrity or sportsperson or someone whom we can't have as our bf/gf in real life........this is what is called an infatuation in the true sense of terms.....this is a really weird feeling and nobody can help you out of the situation.....let it be a mystery here whether this following piece is about a girl who i infatuate or is it a literal expressions for all those who infatuate someone......this is a rare romantic side of my writing.....i seldom write about romance and love.....well there is only another piece in this blog about romance other than this one.......so let it be said that this might be one of the rare pieces that express in true sense of terms how a person feel when they r hopelessly in love with someone with whom they cannot have a relationship with in real life.......just enjoy.....\m/

this is called YOU......


a feeling so fresh
it makes my blood race
the moves your body makes
my heart feel the quakes
those limbs so slender
and that skin, soft and tender
a touch is all i crave
will it be a wish so grave
your smile makes me skip a beat
your eyes makes me wanna feel the heat
all i want is you....
nothing else but you!!!


knowing that it might never come true
i still wanna dream this through
to hold your hand in mine
and kiss those lips that tastes like wine
everything about you is so great
wish this dream never ends
darling, it was love at first sight
was ready to face all odds with might
regret only i have is one
into reality this dream can be turned by none
all i for wish is you....
nothing else but you!!!

Expressions........

this past week i was appearing for an interview for my post graduate admissions at IIT Kanpur....all of us who were appearing for the final round of interview were made to sit in a common waiting room.....while we were all sitting there i noticed that all the people there were having unique expressions on their faces...some casual,some serious, some nervous,some calm while there were others who were cracking jokes and were seemingly having a good time there.......actually these were different coping mechanisms for different people to deal with imminent stress!!!!!
i was looking around and observing the different expressions.......the ones on the girls were really interesting....some had a hard look,some not at all friendly....particularly there was one girl who was staring at me with such intensity that i thought she was trying to burn me with her stare(lol!!!!)......seeing such wide emotional sub-genres that i couldn't but help myself to write something about it......this following piece is just a little insight into the different types of expressions that i came across in that room which i shared with all those strangers for a few hours.....i wouldn't forget that piercing look that the girl gave me.....i don't what she was trying to say or convey but she definitely did freak me out for a split second...............here it is EXPRESSIONS.....

expressions.....

expressions there are many..
most of them are not even funny,
grave, none seem to the eye....
what we dont see is the turmoil inside!!!
as if they are standing on the last stair
eyes closed shut, no courage for a stare...
seems to be knocking on hell's gate
someone will soon come to seal their fate.
weird how misleading they can be
how real they can feel
EXPRESSIONS!!!!


the look that finally made you kneel
you never knew that you would be the one to leave.....
leads us in directions wayward...
but we still search for them to make a move forward.
eyes fixed in a grim stare,
cold enough to light a flare.....
you try to find what it says
maybe then you can be at harms way.
so real and true they sometimes are..
for explanations you dont even care.....
EXPRESSIONS!!!!

a cruel con.......

many a times we hear people trying to achieve a certain standard of life or moved from a small town or place of no importance to a bigger for famous place or position....sometimes we feel happy for those people....and there are others who are just waiting to get a hold of these people to exploit them when they have reached that particular position........we all dream of doing great things.... there are those who want to achieve a better standard of living.....a much better one...one that the elites of the society enjoys.......its a dream they want to see come true at any cost...they work hard, they toil and when they finally achieve what they have worked for they wish to be treated as an equal......many a times they are treated as equal.....and many a times they a conned in the name of being treated as equal......what the person feels then i know not....what i do know is expressed in a few lines here........

alone the boy stands
hoping to catch a glimpse
underneath all those colourful strands
everything around him is amiss
lights and flurry there were many
so close they seem to him
cares for him is there any
or is he just an investment too grim??
pompous with joy there are all
love for once he once to feel
but no one is ready to take that fall
like an enemy weak he is made to kneel...
wondering what it would be...
to live amongst those above
the boy tries a road to find
only to be told there is no love!!!

this still needs to be completed!!!!!!

starting from the scratch.......

this has been a long break for me.....i'm back here after quite a few months.......its like moving into a new locality.....but once i realized that i have returned to my sanctum it looks all familiar now.....
i really have been very busy picking up the bits and pieces of my mistakes....some times you dont get what you deserve or the result is not upto your expectation....even though you have worked very hard for it.......well the truth is this happens all the time with me....i dont know why.....nothing goes my way smoothly.....unexpected barriers keep coming up infront of me.....i dont know why but this is just the way i have been facing life.....all 23 yrs of it till date......some times i think i must have made my usual joke or comments about the god of luck(if there is any...) and must have pissed him off pretty bad!!!!!!hehehe....
WTF do i care........will face whatever comes my way.......
well there is something i want to divulge here....sometimes how i feel....presently how i feel and how i pledge to do right........its a real personal feeling....if anyone reads this post other than me would not understand these last few lines......but anyways enjoy the next few......
its really good to be back in 'My S@nctum'!!!!!

running out...

hanging by the balance
never taking another chance
to let me endure this
a life of misery, without bliss....
bearing a wry smile
all my pains i file...
everything seems to fall apart....
every shred of luck running out!!!

the world around me seems to collapse
seeing others rise makes my pains relapse
brain drained of all zest
getting only jealous
never felt so desperate
time only making me more frustrate
trying to rebuild part by part...
my sanctum, whilst my patience is running out!!!

mistake too grave i've committed
with a dejected head i admit it...
price too heavy i'm paying
its a truth to which theres no denying
have only one last shot
to redemption, then alls lost
going down like a well fought bout
have to finish as my stamina is running out!!!!

well why not me.....

well why not me.....i can be sarcastic....well i'm mostly sarcastic...........my sense of humor is base upon my sarcasm and i tend to keep people around me pretty happy with it.....
but this is a different level of sarcasm.....here the joke is made of our lives...of the lives of those people who cant voice their grievances and of those whose grievances fall on deaf ears.....
some people tend to rise to fame riding on a facade and they seem to be pretty proud of themselves.....well this is about those ruthless bastards and those smothered millions and somethings more!!!!! its called THE TRIUMPH OF LIFE....

Triumph of Life

burning bright in the dark
fading away with a spark
colours of life turning grey
a darker shade everyday
stranger than fiction it seems
people claiming that life beams
love and happiness is whats all there
but their claims are overruled everywhere
riddled with pain and plight
we call it the Triumph of Life
Triumph of Life!!!!

every face bears a smile
preaching that all's fine
a picture so beautiful
humanity should be grateful
lifting up our hands
while the elite take up the stands
strugling for a nibble
smothering the feeble
with power and might
we call it the Triumph of Life
Triumph of Life!!!

on we cling
convinced that hope isnt a fling
ready to bleed and die
for glory even if its a lie
like a phoenix one rises
seldom and houses
in our hearts
despite all the hurts
with mettle without fright
we call it the Triumph of Life
Triumph of Life!!!!